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Who am I?        What am I?

Who and what do you choose to be?”

The following piece is taken directly from 
Chapter 15  ---   Intimacy, Freedom, and a Taste of Heaven
By R.  Robin Cote'

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In every moment, I am complete.   I am here and now in every moment.   I am spontaneous and free to be and do exactly as I choose.   As I go about my daily business, I repeatedly ask: “In the face of what is going on right now, right here, who do I choose to be?  and how do I choose to respond?”   I answer the question and then proceed to walk my talk to the best of my ability.

In knowing that we are all one, I choose to love myself first so that I have the capacity to love everyone and everything else.   I give my love to myself, to you, and to all others, knowing that I receive back ten-fold of what I give out. 

In the context of our mutual love, it is still I who chooses who and what I shall be and what I shall do.   Our shared love is a context within which I make those choices for me, and you make similar choices for yourself.

I am an eternal, divine being, living in a human body and sharing my human experience with you.

I am a swimmer in the sea of infinite possibilities, ever re-creating myself anew.   I have no idea today who I may one day choose to become.   Right now, in this exact moment, I choose to love you and to share part of my life with you.   Oh, that moment is gone.   OK, in this new moment, I again choose to live, love and laugh with you.   Thus, in each moment, I re-create my love for you.   My love of life and of other human beings in no way restricts my love for you, for love grows by sharing it.

Our love must remain ever new, re-created, moment by moment, every day.   Our love will change.   It will grow and evolve.   It will be ever new.   It will not be tomorrow what it is today.   It cannot be tomorrow what it is today for like everything else in the universe, it, too, must change.

Harmony is our most important, mutual creation.   If harmony leaves, I will invite it back.   If harmony is destroyed, I will re-create it.   If harmony dies I will rebirth it.   Beyond that, I can make no promises as to who I shall be tomorrow, or the next day, or next year. 

You must realize that I am not the person you think I am.   I cannot compete with your fantasy about who you think I am.   I shall not even try.   In being who I am, I will surely surprise you, please you, and disappoint you, sometimes all in the same moment.

I’m another imperfect human being.   I make mistakes and do stupid, foolish and sometimes embarrassing things.   I have some annoying habits like thinking I’m right when I really don’t know.   I’m sometimes so spontaneous that I jump into things and occasionally get myself into a lot of trouble.   I have, at times, flaunted my sexuality and manipulated men into doing my bidding.   I have a sexual nature that some would call a bizarre work of the devil and others would call a spiritual connection to God.   I hate math because I’m not very good at it, and I’ve turned dinner into smoke and carbon on more than one occasion.

You may think you know me.   You don’t!   You have seen only the barest glimpse of me and then, mostly my good side.   I have been called impulsive, impudent, rude, brash, brazen, ballsy, an ingénue with an attitude.   Some say I’m crazy, naive or just plain stupid.

I live in a female body that secretes blood on a monthly basis.   My breasts are too small, my feet are too big, and my nose is too pointed.   My body sweats like everyone else’s, smells when not washed, and passes gas like all others.   I get cranky when I’m tired, panic when my period is late, and I just plain refuse to drink eight glasses of water in a single day.

I don’t like football, or basketball.   I hate hockey, and I can’t pee standing up.   Well, actually, I can.   It’s just that it’s rather messy that way.

When I think I’m right, I can be obstinate, stubborn and willful.   I like to think of myself as a spiritual being, but sometimes I can’t or simply don’t walk my talk.   At times I know what’s right for me to do and I do something else, anyway.

If you are foolish, brave, wise, and willing, to step into the unknown with me.   I am here for you and with you.   I love you.

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Married I Am -- Married I Am Not

Written by R. Robin Cote'

If marriage is a piece of paper in a bureau drawer;

If marriage is possessing a housekeeper or a meal ticket;

Then married I am not.

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If marriage is satisfying jealous, gossipy neighbors 
      that I am as miserable as they are;

If marriage is only having participated in a (legal) ceremony;

Then married I am not.

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If marriage is only having a state-controlled, legal contract 
      to engage in sanctioned, sexual activity;

If a marriage license is a certificate of ownership;

Then married I am not.

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If marriage is loving and being loved;

Then married I am.

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If marriage is a close and intimate union;

If marriage is a heart to heart relationship;

Then married I am.

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If marriage is sharing one's life with another;

If marriages are made in "heaven;"

Then married I am.

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